so, i'm thinking and i'm letting it all out, well, not ALL, but i'm letting my brain drain right here. i worry too much, anyone with me on this? when i became a mother it all started to wash over me. the thoughts of death i had never had before and thoughts of my kids not liking me. my parents are getting older and i hate the thought of being too far from them. i'm living a life here, but not really LIVING, you know. i hope this isn't IT, but i'm afraid it is. we're waiting for the next best thing and when you wait too long you start to feel like ANYTHING would be next best, and that's not always true... grace is becoming a young girl and i like it and don't all at once. she changes me and the dynamic we have. noah is ALL BOY as they say and i have no idea how to handle him, so i worry he'll turn out "bad" i can say that my relationship with eric probably couldn't be better than it is. we are on the same page with life issues and wh...