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so, what of it?

I'm mad,

I'm frustrated,

I'm confused,

I'm an adult?

I'm a volunteer,

I'm selfish,

I'm a mom!

I'm Kara.



I can't be anyone else. I can't ask for anymore help. I have to do it myself and I don't want to.

So?! You say.



Yeah, what of it?



I want something new.



OR



I want my new thing to be what my old was.



I was comfortable back then, and I felt like people knew me, and LIKED me.

Do I just need to move on from it, or is this really something I should strive for? my old comfort



I don't dream of going back to grade school, or high school or college.

I dream of the people, friends, responsibility, love.

I NEED it



If this is it from here on out....



WHAT THE %$@&!!

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