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Can this be me?

So,
I was thinking about me,
Can I truly be the person that I am?

I can't tell you how much I really think about things. I over think, I ponder, I worry and then I think some more. Why, as my daughter would say.
And maybe that's why I think so much. I have to answer her question ten times before she'll let it go.

I know as an adult that she only wants me to give up and let her have what she wants, but I still try to answer.
Sometimes I say "because I said so" but that drives me nuts after I say it.

Back to thinking,

I was thinking that maybe I should stop that and just do, whatever it is that I'm trying to think about. You know, do first and think later.

I can't honestly think (there I go again) of a time that I just did it, without thinking.
Maybe it'll be my new philosophy. I'll reject thinking and only do.

Then I wouldn't be me and no one else would be them, to me at least.

Can mid-life be 28?
I think my crisis just started.
or,

I'm about to have a baby. . . another one.

I can't wait to meet him.

I think I'll pray on it, then think about what I prayed on;)

Comments

Heidi said…
I THINK it's fair to THINK about chalking it up to that little boy. Is Grace getting excited?
February 7, 2008 at 8:13 AM
Kara said…
I think Grace is just fine with the baby being in Mama's belly as long as is possible.
February 10, 2008 at 5:23 PM
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