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I forgot to take off my slippers today


It's one of those days today.

I forgot to take off my slippers this morning so I'm in that, you know, still sleeping not motivated, and definately not ready for the day. I've cried today for us. I thought for a moment that it was for me, but I really don't think so. I am sad for us. I know the kids don't care. They have faith like children, no pun intended.

I'm sad for people who get shot in front of schools for being "over the top" and I'm sad for people who think it's okay that these people die. I'm sad for people who argue about who's right and who's wrong. Who's left and who's right. I'm not out of the loop I know because I have opinions, but am I sad because I'm not one to shout them from the rooftops?

I'm sad that Grace isn't running into my arms when she comes home and telling me all about her day, although I know that's just not her style, mine either. I'm sad that I don't know how to make my kids happy all the time and that they seem complacent. Maybe they're happy it's just me who isn't.

I'm not PMSing and I don't know where these moods come from but I want them to go away.

I'm sad mostly today for victims. Families who have lost loved ones for absolutely no reason and sad that they have to go on without...just without.


I'm choosing to not be sad for me or my family anymore today. I'm choosing to remember those who have gone on to be in a place much happier than this one. And maybe I can choose to make this place happier for now.

okay, that's out of my system, who's up for a drink?
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SH said…
Umm... did you take this picture of yourself while on the toilet?

Yeah.
I thought so.
September 11, 2009 at 4:30 PM
Kara said…
I told you, it's one of those days. A, I want to flush it down the toilet type of day, so I thought that photo was appropriate.
September 12, 2009 at 10:48 AM
Heidi said…
I noticed that, too and was going to call Sara and ask if she thought you'd think it was funny if I called you out on it. Should have known it'd already be done:-)
September 14, 2009 at 9:32 AM
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